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[Jun. 13th, 2005|11:06 pm] |
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Wow i am soo tired and stressed right now. I know everyone is in this end o year chaos, but yeah, i think i've had no more than 3 hours of sleep a night for the last 2 or so weeks. no exaggeration. I have a migraine and I need to study for my chem final. I need an 81%. i need it. I know that doesn't sound hard, but i really need to at least review some of these formulas. But now i can't absorb any information and I am completely on the verge of tears. i kind of want to cry, just let it out and releive some of this tension i'm feeling.
damn i want that score..
GREAT TIMING.
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[Jun. 12th, 2005|12:48 am] |
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Hey all!
3 more days, why do i feel so crappy? it must be because of the intense amount of final projects and papers i have due monday. combined, of course, with the fact that my parents won't let me do anything. I feel so trapped all the time and it makes me so angry. I can't go to Anna's bonfire tonight. I wanted to so bad so i can hang out with all the seniors one last time. but of course my parents won't let me. "they'll be around" she says. doubtful, especially since i'm leaving for 3 weeks come saturday(thankfully). Even if they had let me go, know what would have happened? well, of course, i wouldn't be allowed to drive there, dad would have to, so he could go meet her father of course. AHAAHAHHAHAHA! wow, that wouldn't be embarrassing at alll.
I tell my parents EVERYTHING. seriously, they should be worshiping the ground i walk on, i don't drink, smoke or have sex and I tell my parents if there was drinking etc. but do they trust me? hell no. instead everything is regarded with suspicion. i'll be honest, i have lied to them so i could go somewhere before. for what you may ask? why, something as innocent as lazertag! just because i wouldn't be home by curfew. I'm starting to think i should just do that in general because otherwise i'll never have a life.
I'm constanly bombarded with threats of private school, having to quit my job, no social life until i'm 18 (beleive me, my dad isn't a kidder). one of the sweetest things hes said to me lately is : "believe me, you don't know how evil i can be"
what a guy.
school sucks too, in miss bennet's i have a 89.75 or higher and she won't bump it up, senile ol hag! we'll see about that.. lol
at least one aspect of my life is going well, dane is an amazing guy and i'm really lucky to have him. i'm so happy :D.. well, not presently lol.
this whole week/weekends sucked it up big time, i hate that feeling in your chest when your angry, its just an uneasy feeling. like your anxious to do something you never can.
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[May. 13th, 2005|02:18 pm] |
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Your Political Profile
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Overall: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal
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Social Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
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Personal Responsibility: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal
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Fiscal Issues: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal
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Ethics: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
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Defense and Crime: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal
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[May. 9th, 2005|03:09 pm] |
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paul and victoria probably already noticed this, but i left before 4th block today. then i ate me some cornerstone. it was gooo-ood! but yeah, yesterday was quite fun, i got a camera my mom's giving me for my birthday, and a bunch of beads etc. :) i have soo much fun w/ dane. ahhh! <3
i saw byebye birdie friday, it was really cute. tess was hillarious and beth did an awesome job. hillary did a good job acting too. One person(not naming names) grated on my nerves most of the show, they weren't exactly the best of actors/actresses. but yeah, it was cool. now i must away, because i have to go to work really soon. see you all tomorrow!
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[Apr. 11th, 2005|07:55 pm] |
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haha yeah, sorry if i sounded a little bit bitchy in my last post, i was just angry at jeremy for expecting me to still go w/ him after all this stuff. but yeah, mychal asked ME i didn't ask him and i was concerned that that would start things, but its no big deal since its just as friends. i really do feel bad for jeremy but i don't want to compromise what i've said and go with him. but yeah, will and mychal are my good friends too, I've been friends with them long before i even met jeremy. and I just thought it was absurd that he would tell me to stay away from them (even when he's not around and after school) for a couple weeks. but yeah, just thought i'd say that... well, xoxo
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[Apr. 11th, 2005|03:14 pm] |
hey thar, so yeah, i guess i'm going to prom with mychal. I'm not way sure about how this is going to go but wuteva lol. jeremy bitched at me online for hogging his bestfriends for like 3 hours lastnight. he said he needs his space and i shouldn't hang out with them for a few weeks... uhh yeah, that isn't at all wierd to ask. I should be the one making demands, not him. then, though, logan talked some sense in him and he finally just said not to change my what i've been doing and if he has a problem w/ it he'll leave. i love logan lol. uh yeah anyway, thats about all, see you all tomorrow!
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[Apr. 9th, 2005|07:42 pm] |
oooh i like this one lol:
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[Mar. 28th, 2005|12:32 am] |
1.) Copy and paste this into your journal:
<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b>
2.) Eliminate the asterisks.
2 1/2.) Replace "yourusername" with your user name.
3.) See what color you are. |
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[Feb. 8th, 2005|10:48 pm] |
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omg, this is 'national boost molly's confidence day!' or something... i love this feeling, i dunno if i've ever felt content w/ myself. thanks rufio!<3<3
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[Jan. 11th, 2005|07:35 pm] |
[01] Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
[02] I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
[03] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
[04] Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
[05] Put this in your journal |
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| xmas |
[Dec. 23rd, 2004|10:56 pm] |
I just got home from the Nutcracker with my mom:) it was a lot of fun. we went to dinner at this crazy-expensive restaurant(we didn't realize at first) and the menu was such that I think I may have eaten noodles with ox-tails lol sooo sick. luckily it was just the meat and it wasn't shaped like tail anymore... hmmm anyway, last night was interesting. I stayed up until 5 am hanging out with jacks friends when they took breaks from the LAN party. plus, whenever I attempted to sleep I got pegged with peanut m&ms hehehe.
wow, only two more days before christmas... I hope you guys all have an awesome christmas eve and christmas day(unless for some reason or another you don't celibrate it, in which case just have an awesome day)
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| damnit !! awww |
[Dec. 20th, 2004|09:23 pm] |
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damnit! we've lost one of the good people at work!! eric got fired today!!! i'm so mad! this sucks, how sad... |
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[Dec. 16th, 2004|12:45 am] |
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YAY! I'M DONE!!! I'M SO FINISHED WITH THAT PAPER ITS INSANE!!!! WOOOOOO! yeahh.... I am extremely excited that I no longer have to worry about that. I'm sure its not amazing, and i really should read through it a few times, but its about 4 and a half pages long so I am still very happy. Of course, I still have a french test and a chemistry test to make up and I haven't had a chance to study for either. nor have I finished all of my chemistry homework. I think in english I'll be doing french, in french I'll be doing chemistry and so on and so on. In any case I have to stay late tomorrow afternoon. two more days...
just two.... more... days....
I hope i can survive them.
I can't wait for xmas break, but its such a shame that i have to waste 5 perfectly good vacation days at a stupid hotel in Richmond Virginia playing nanny to a bunch of screaming cousins. oh joy.
I tried to get dad to let me stay home alone, but as you may know, hes a paranoid freak and he doesn't trust me about anything. (ya know, cause I'm such a bad kid and I ALWAYS do the wrong thing..) He thinks a bunch of people would crash the house and have a giant party, like i'd ACTUALLY let that happen even in the unlikely event that someone would attempt it. I'm not that helpless and weak. give me a break. anyway, I'm going to eat and prepare for my fun-filled day tomorrow.
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[Nov. 21st, 2004|11:07 pm] |
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OH my gosh, i just spent the last few hours switching the last three months worth of entries to 'friends' because my brother got a hold of my LJ username and he would use all this info in any way possible, so yeah, all my entries (other than this one) will be friends only from now on lol, sorry. so yeah, just add me to your friends and if you can prove your not jack i'd be happy to add you. yeah anyways... to bed and then: SCHOOL! excitement. |
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[Oct. 7th, 2004|11:29 pm] |
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i got an e-mail from mr. ryan today. He says he misses me, I wrote him back and we'll see if we become friends again. I hope so. I need someone to talk to. i'm so lonely. I find this funny because i probably have more friends this year than i have before. this was kind of sudden, course, thats sort of what i'm doing w/ chris lol, i'm sorta ambushing him. i hope he DOES talk to me and doesn't just ignore what i wrote. I dunno what I'm gonna do about homecoming nothing ever works out. I sort of want to just go with a friend and goof off. I'm thinking maybe jp so we could get to know each other better and i think he needs a date. anywho, i dunno. I guess we'll see in about a week.
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| I SUCK!!! |
[Oct. 7th, 2004|08:35 pm] |
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I would just like the world to know that I am a complete MFING IDIOT!! it has just now been confirmed. not but something recent, no, but rather something that occurred a number of months ago with a certain someone. I am SUCH a complete MORON that i thought i was doing the right thing, rather, i overlooked my happiness and made what is probably one of the dumbest decisions i have ever made. I miss him so much and now he hates me completely. What i wouldn't give to talk to him on the phone again or have him laugh at a joke. It was so perfect, something i'm not used to handling and so, of course, i F*cked it alllll up. Damn, i suck. now i just keep thinking back to all the fun we had together and get the sudden urge to smack myself. sure, he said some really cruel things about me afterwards, but what should i expect?? and now i realize that some, not all of those things were true. I think he was right about me being inexperienced, just not in the way he thought i was. I have never had anything go my way before and i had no clue how to react. I thought that by leaving it all I could finally finish moving on, something i'd been trying to do for MONTHS by then, and i wouldn't hurt a mutual friend. welp, i just ended up hurting him and probably mostly myself. stupid me. i just wish he knew i was sorry and how i feel. I know that probably won't change anything and he probalbly STILL won't want to talk to me, but i think i would feel alot better if i got it off my chest instead of just pining away. I think i will. he's a senior and soon i will run out of chances to at least make things semi-okay between us and i would regret that. If only he still read this thing, if only anyone did lol. anyways, i've needed to say that for so long. Now i need to say it to him, if i can ever get him to listen.
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| summertime.... |
[Aug. 3rd, 2004|12:47 am] |
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Well well, its pretty busy for summer time. Alisha left last wednsday and is having a great time in peru so far. We all bawled soooo much at the airport and the night before. Thursday was alot of fun. all 6 of us did end up going to the fair. then to taco bell. Geoff an Ryan dropped me and amanda at her house and Ryan gave me a neclace. i like it alot. Jack seems to think chad gave it to me. i don't know why. I'm doing very little this week. thats probably good, though, i really need to get working. Need waaaay more money to replace the camera. I spent 3 hours ironing the huge pile thats been growing in our laundry room for the last 2 years. Damn I hate ironing. I think, from Chris' livejournal, that he is with anna or something, thats so great! i am really happy for them if thats whats going on. not that its really any of my bussiness hehe. oh well. anywho, thats about anything of intrest in forest grove today. had a 2 hr. long conversation w/ zeb about food stuffs, lol. good times.
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| blegch summer |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|10:32 pm] |
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Man end of the school year! this was like the worst last day of school ever! geezers, it was wet, i didn't get to say goodbye to anyone, I finished the day w/ math, and i din't even get to do anything tonight. It sucks a duck. geez. Today was Frogger's Birthday! he's finally 17!! I think we're all gonna hang out with him tomorrow. I want to make him somethin! I think i just might. I have nothing else to do. I need to do some serious sewing, too, for manda and i need a going away thing for lish. man drama again. i hate this. people get mad and i feel guilty and i can't freaking control any of it! it sucks so much! Whatever its all crap, well, its all out there now so i'm done. I'm going to alishas. W.A.S.!! -ME |
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